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Friday, January 18, 2008
I think it's quite weird for me to start blogging again but oh well sometimes there are thoughts I have that i just wish to pen down. These thoughts in me have been bottling up and never a chance to let them out.
Well to start things off first, I really want to get back into a relationship. Its like, maybe due to the previous relationship that I have neglected many stuff in life such as going out with real friends and do things as a group of friends. I completely miss that out except once or twice with my good friends Ivan, Ben, Nicolas so on..
Now I'm having these great bunch of friends, I do stuff as groups now and really enjoy life and talking cock with them. Poly has open a completely new entrance to my world where I was only with a girl for 3 1/2 years. I was so afraid of talking to girls, maybe its just natural because I didn't really talk to any girl for fear of jealousy.
I'm just lacking something in life that friends cannot provide. Someone to talk to. I mean good friends do talk to me but however, some stuff like gossiping , talking nonsense and even the simple "what are you doing?" can spark off a great conversation. But some times male friends will only talk to you about the few stuff like games etc.
I really do not how to approach a girl neither do i know how to start a good conversation, I'm kind of upset and disappointed in myself. That's why I'm really envious of people like Sunny and Nicolas who are able to hit it off so well with people. I mean i just can't. I'm just scared the person will just run away and not talk to me anymore thus resulting in the current me.
To be honest, I like a girl now. Well, I did the most foolish thing, was to ask her out for a movie. It's just so stupid of me, I do not even know the girl well yet and is not like we are those who will talk on msn everyday. I think she might think that I'm freaking her out. I just do not want that, I just want to slowly know more about her hoping she will feel the same for me.
I'm training everyday, lifting weights everyday all just to get into a better shape so I can be in a better position to know more about you. I'm quite proud to say that I have lost 4 inches off my waist size and will continue to do better. I know i know all the sayings about doing exercise for the benefit of oneself, however my mindset is different.
I know no matter how nice I can be, without an acceptable face or body no girls will want to talk to me. Maybe I'm just over reacting but yea ..that's how i feel.
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